I hate singhs!
Dun ask why!
Hahahaha

Anyway ytd wen out wit dan and we saw 3 impt ppl
1) Fiona Xie - He actually stalk her inside paragon
2) Paul 2 Hill - he was dotaing!!
3) Dan Ex gf current bF whose fav phrase is - i rather go thru bad times wit u then gd times wit some1 else
Dan is currently crying beside me

Crap i shld hav thInk of tat phrase and said it to viona man!! Then i'll think i wil still be attach now.

So ytd was a hectic day. Fell alslp at almost 6 mugging and talking!

Anyway we chatted abt our ex till we fall aslp and i realise some stuff.

The reason why i lose her was becos i was to afraid to lose her. So i grab hold on to her not wanting to lose her and like what they say " if u close ur hands so tighlty,the sands will flow out thru the holes in btwn the fingers" Its true.

I was afraid to lose her interest and all that. So i work so hard in my track and field to impress her. I jus wanna be better then those guys who liked her. LoL well i played guitar on my own interest but i alyways learn songs for her la. I did so many things but i did not realise tat it all do not matter. That at that time no matter what she will still love me for who i am. Even if i got last for my nationals Cross country ( LoL but i did not!!), i will still be the best to her. I was jus to clouded by the thought of wanting to be the best for her. In the end i lose it all.

I was so afraid to lose her then in the end i did lose her.
Well i realise that for u to hav a great and lasting relationship, u mus not be afraid to lose the person. I realise it way to late - ytd night.
Only wen u dun hav the stuff that u normally do, u will start to learn to appreciate it more.

Most ppl will tell me "aiyah first love! RAW NOOB!!"
but seriously i am sure viona wld agree wit me abt tis, that wat we had was truly special and unique. Not ur usual typical infactuation love bla bla bla. We could hav gone to 1 yr.

And i wld hav not choose a better girl to be my first gf wit =D
Lol all those reading this pls dun think horny stuff ah suckers! LoL!!

I think i've becum to the new camera i bought man. It is always wit me wenever i am!!

Oh well i really hope one day viona will come across tis blog and read all this. Jus so that she knows how i truly feel! Her next bf is so gonna be damn lucky!

Hey yasmin! fASTER GO LOSE 25KG BORAT WAITING FOR U ALR