Was doing some chem paper 3 wen i decided to look at all the pics in my ipod.
And then i felt the emptiness again. How things change so much in the past few months or shld i say since last yr?
Well since i hav no1 to talk it to, i guess i'll jus pen down my tots here.
Things change so much for this past 2 yrs of my life.
I use to be able to take a nice family photo, how i could not wait for hari raya but now, everything changes. Somehow i jus wish hari raya wld nvr come. This yr there wont be any family pic.
Cus in prison, Grandad is gone(not dead) but gone, uncle passing away. But at least there is an addition to the family. But its sad that his first hari raya will not be a nice one. I'm sry abt tis johan. Hopefully wen u grow up, wen we are all older things will be so much better. But like wat mum said "things are only gonna get worst. u hav to be strong". I love my mum. not gonna let her down.
Then i was looking at some sec sch pics i took. How happy life was and how ez sch was!!hahaha. It was so ez to get straight A's then. Its sad cause i regret losing contact with them. Still rmb jiewei pallani and peipei they all at the back of the class laughing our ass off and not ccaring abt maths or some other fucking lessons. Those were the days.
Then came the pics i took in first 3 mths with my superb class and my ODAC!!
Back then i stil had a class and it was nice to belong to somewhere. I was the only malay there as usual and my class treat me so gd! I was like the small brother there! still rmb valentine day, i nvr gotten so much gifts from girls b4! one even made a pillow with my name on it. How sweet. I got them nth but hey! i played soccer for the class and me and tyrik won for them! At least tyrik still contact me and we do hang out once in awhile. Hard to find pals like him.
Odac was like family. I nvr felt so happy b4 wen i was with them. Ok maybe its because Viona was there.hahaha.Wen i was there, i aint being proud but i was the fav j1 there. My J2'S and Mr Lim always put me on the gd team for any competition. Ok maybe 2 competition.ahaha. But back then i was the fittest and it felt so damn gd. Being the best in climbing and running. But that was back den. I still rmb how my senior always talk for me or help me wenever i got into trouble in sch or in odac. I nvr forget winning my very first national medal. It felt so great.
Malay class was also fun! Yasmin!! there was where i met u!! hahaah omg tis feels so gay! but i can safely say she is one of the few ppl i can call a gd and true fren. Its weird huh. And she tot i was dumb and retarded cause i used foolscap paper to wipe the blood on my knee wen i fell. I DID TAT CAUSE U HAD NO TISSUE!!
Sch was so fun then, it was always soccer and running for me. I rmb my bag was super light cause it only had 2 extra shirt,one towel and waterbottle and my pencil case and papers.
Expedition was superb. It had one of the greatest impact on my life. I rmb every1 there helpiing me learn a chinese song cause i was the only malay there and making me stand in front of EVERYONE AND SING TO THEM THE CHINESE SONG CALLED LIAG HUA HI DUO DUO (dunno how to spell) hey i can still rmb the lyrics eh!
Now me and my odac frens are jus hi bye frens. How things has change so much huh.
Then came the lovelly pics of me and her. I really dunno what wen wrong but let tat be all in the past. We were one but now we are like 2 strangers. I rmb the other day wen we jus walk pass each other like strangers. I still rmb how it felt to........but tat was all in the past. I've alr move on but i got to say, tat was one of the best moment in my life.
In yjc i met my buddies i wld say. Tik and me were like best of frens, we would go on comic spree every month and jus hang out every weekend. Now we dun even look or talk with one another. I dunno wat happen.
Sufyan and weijie was like a brother to me. Things change and they choose to believe a bitch who farking spread stuff abt me They choose to believe it. and now they hate me.
Andrew is also gone.
I'm left with edwin who is not there most of the time and he has problem of his own.
5guysandamidget was so close, now we are 5 seperate ppl and a midget. Things change so much.
I'm sure by now those raeding wld fall aslp alr.hahaha
I den look at the track pics we use to take. It was the closest i had to odac and it was gd. But only for awhile. Every1 gone their seperate ways. The dinner was great though. Mr sara rocks. Oh and he ask me out for a coffee, ahahaha! Sry cher! now fasting period.
Oh and then i saw the pics i took recently! Guess tat happinese was only short term. Things change too i guess. But no matter how hard i tried my feelings still cant go away! argh!! How i wish i cld take more of tat pics. but those are only dreams and hope. nvr felt tis way for a long time. The last time was wen i met viona.haha
Oh and the last pic i saw was dan and his gf. How he and stacey look so gd together! Hahaha den i rmb the naughty stuff he told me he did wit her.hahahahaha. But now he and her are jus frens.
Well dan things change man. And i guess we hav to change wit time to. Oh and we nvr had a pic taken together man! Maybe one day we can get a grp pic or something. If its only the 2 of us, it wld seeemmm very very weird.Hahahah
Well i guess i'll jus stop here b4 i get to emo!haha. But those stuff above are true. and life seem so empty now. Maybe the rainbow will come soon.
OK TIME FOR CHEM AGAIN!!!
